So, here’s a problem! That is until I actually thought about it.
I am an EMPATH! Anyone else who is usually can be quite emotional.
I have been an empath all my life. I remember as a young child that I felt ‘attached’ or like I wanted to cy or be angry, during any number of situations. Whether it was somethings on the TV or something I heard about or actually witnessed, I felt frequent anger or the desire to cry.
You see, even in early childhood, I wouldn’t let myself cry and when I did cry it was because I was so enraged, that crying was the peak of my response.
Not until some life changing events when I was 31, did I ‘learn’ to cry. In a short time, I made it ‘ok’ within me to show this emotion whether something is beautiful, sad, a loss, frustrating, etc.
Now back to being an empath. We ‘feel’ things of or for others. That being said, this is what happens in my world. As you probably know of me, I communicate and perform works of mystical healing on animals. We all know countless stories of ‘sad’ or ‘tragic’ things that unfortunately happen to animals. I used to get caught up in the negative realms , that I now see as looking at things through the eyes of a victim, but in the last few years I look upon these things from acceptance and understanding.
With my abilities to communicate and work on animals, they come to me and get real close if they want me to ‘clearly know somethings RIGHT NOW’.
Today I was driving to follow up with a client from last week. During my drive I note that I am feeling aggravated.
When I got to the home, I was working with a client and their small dog but the large dog in the house was beside herself with joy that I was there. She couldn’t wait for me to “touch” her. As I was communicating with the client about the small patient, the large dog was as close as she could get and never broke her eye contact. The client kept yelling at the large dog to lie down but I kept her close.
This exact scenario happened last week too, with these same clients.
Last week, I noted the large dog was ‘a mess’, as they say here in this community. The clients were telling me of the history and conditions of this dog and I could sense the big picture of the dog’s condition. I didn’t say anything to the owners. Things were not dire and these owners thought things were okay.
As soon as I saw the large dog today, I could have cried as I felt her dire state and her own awareness of what her truth was.
I worked on the small dog patient and interacted with the family . I was trying to keep my energy high and distracted so as to not empathically experience what was going on with the large dog. That wasn’t to last long.
As I was taking payment, I asked the family to allow the Large dog to come back up to the main level, as they had put her in the basement while I was working. The dog COULD NOT get her rear legs under her to stand, push up or crawl. She fell backwards with her legs splayed out in a split. She looked up the stairs for help and they just kept telling her to get up.
I was screaming inside my head as I could here her tell me, “Get me out of here”!.
I went down to her and the clients are explaining to me that ,”she usually eventually get her legs under herself and then she just stands around”.
As I’m putting my hands on the dog she tells me, “You won’t find anything (chiropractically), you have got to tell them I am full of cancer and I am NOT going to get better.” Now, I start crying but I’m trying not to so I can tell the clients what is going on.
I communicate the information and the clients decide the dog is in pain and will take her to be euthanized today. When the dog heard this, she finally laid down and took a big sigh.
I finished at the house and left. By the time I got to my car, I was nearly hysterical with grief. Grief from the owners of the animal. Grief from the suffering the dog was experiencing. Grief from the pitiful physical and emotional state that the dog was in.
As I pulled away, I was checking myself and replaying the event.
My take aways were, I am glad that I have the gifts I have to be able to help human and animal, I am grateful I was at that house today to have the dog heard and her position respected. The grief I was feeling is actually, my helping human and animal ‘release’ that which they can’t or that they do not know of ( like karmic issues).
My final piece in this was strictly for me. I did not respect that part of me that is Devine and put up protection of myself and all others concerned for the best and highest good. Having realized this, I did a session on myself, of self forgiveness and an increase of my awareness to be more mindful of the need to respect me too.
So actually, I feel quite blessed to be that empath and HUGE gratitude that I know of some tools to take care of people, animals, and not lastly, myself!
Empath good, as long as we also become mindful of the lessons afforded to us during an empathic event.